Christmas is coming…soon…

Is it wrong for me to anticipate Christmas so much?  Maybe.  Because possible it’s not really Christmas that I am anticipating but the fact that I will have three full weeks off school.  I will be able to sleep, eat, and rest without the worry of a book that has to be read or a skill that has to be learned.  Today we did naso-gastric tubes (NG) and feedings…I had the opportunity to feed through the NG tube with a syringe.  I got to go first…they said “well start at the bottom” (of our list of names on the wall)…I’m in the number ten slot for my clinical group.  My stomach fell a little and I felt like I was going to hurl my Oatmeal Squares I had for breakfast.  But once I was done…I was done.  I had all day to prepare for tomorrows lab, CATHETERS.  We watched some videos, they looked a little painful.  :)  I have two labs left.  I’m getting really excited for Christmas. :)

I made a B in my Geriatrics class, not the A I’m used to having…but I passed and this whole way of teaching and learning threw me for a loop the first part of the semester.  I’m happy (or at least accepting) of what I got.  So onward ho!  Carp Diem!  All those little cliches that can be stated that will get me through.  One day at a time!  One day…one day soon in the near future I will be finished.  It may go faster or way slower than I want…but one day.

Last week we had fall break.  I had three whole days that I did not have to get up and go to class.  I did homework in the mornings and went to work a little earlier.  It was nice.  I didn’t get everything done I had hoped (homework wise); but it was a good week.  I spent Friday at the cabin in Van Buren, playing on the water and relaxing.  We kayaked, went on boat rides, played in the woods…had a good day.

God’s Country:
I’m in our church’s annual dinner theater, Christmas at Our House this year.  With my schedule for school and everything else going on people as how I’m going to do it.  My answer at this point is that.  I’ll make it.  It will be fun…and it’s closer to Christmas and my break.

Christmas is coming…soon. :)

ERM

September 24, 2011…12 more weeks

I’ve made it.  I want to shout from the roof top that I have succeeded in making it through six whole weeks of school.  I currently have twelve weeks left, but some of that is going to be broken up with fall break, thanksgiving break, and a few other days off due to testing the school does.  I can handle it.  The next four weeks will be CRAZY with a test every Monday and a Journal entry that I will have to actually make my brain focus on; but hey…I CAN DO THIS!!  I received test scores back from test I took on Monday (9/19), they had back to back test in our two Monday classes, I passed them.  Barely.  We have to keep a 78% or higher (which 78% is considered a “C”) in order not to have to go speak to our teachers about our grades.  My teeth hurt from the skimming they took.  MUST DO BETTER!!

I spend a lot of time with my books, and nothing else.  After October 10, we will be down to only Foundations class and the reading won’t be as heavy (we’ll be reading for only two classes instead of three).  I’m looking forward to the small break. :)

Last night I fell asleep while reading, not good.  There may be some things that I will need to go back over. :)  Also the other morning I had a ‘must take a break’ moment, I pulled up to the gym and hit my garage door opener (for my house) trying to get the gym to open for me.  I had a good laugh and went in and did some extra running on the treadmill trying to get some of the stress and stuff out of my body.  It felt good!!

Christmas at Our House preparations are starting…woot!!  It will take place the week before finals.  I’m supposed to be in it, but I’m not sure if they will let me or not. We’ll see.  I have things to do and places to be…hope everyone is doing well.  Enjoy the awesome weather we’re having and kick back and relax.  I will try to take my own advice.

ERM

Week Three

I made it.  I seriously made it through my third week of nursing school.  I can almost breath.  The first week of school I felt like it was the first day of swimming lessons and I was thrown into the deep end without my floaties.  I was floundering around and sinking fast.  The second week, I had started a good dog paddle and was keeping my nose above the water.  Today (Thursday, which I deemed ‘cry night’ in the previous post — I made it through the evening without crying), I feel like I’ve taken a couple of breast strokes and I could start to tread water a little bit.

This week was hands on; and due to HIPPA I won’t be able to share much…BUT it was GREAT!!

It’s been a good week.  We start vital signs next week, so this should be interesting.  I’m still waiting on the results of my first test we took this past Monday.  One day at a time!!  I sometimes feel like I’m stuck in the story about the little train that could…”I think I can, I think I can”.

Need to run…going to bed early to celebrate the end of week three and our three day weekend.

Later,

ERM

Two weeks down…many more to come!!

We completed our second week of school this past Thursday, with a not so good outcome.  Not a good experience, but one that I have definitely learned from and will do better going forward.

This whole process has been very eye opening and has taken some adjustments.  They all said ‘it’s going to be hard’, ‘prepare to live, eat, and drink it’, ‘you’ll have no life once you start the program’.  They knew what they were talking about, but I don’t think they took into account if you owned a home, were single, had to work, and had medical bills on top of your school bills to pay out of pocket on a part time income.  It’s all VERY stressful.  But fortunately for me, I’ve been blessed.  I received a scholarship that will cover the cost of my books, I was given a student loan (which I have to pay back eventually…but at least I will have some ‘cushion’ in the bank in case my ends don’t meet); I’ve had family and friends give me financial gifts that have helped tremendously, and as a big kicker one of my medical bills is being reduced.  God is good!!  He will take care of me, I just need to let him.

Th whole study, teaching, thought process of this program is totally different than any I have been in before.  It’s definitely not black/white and you have to think outside of the box on a lot of things.  I think the program itself is a teaching mechanism because nursing is not black/white; each patient you have will be different than the last.  Even though they may have the same illness they will take to different treatments and procedures differently ~ we have to be able to handle each situations as it is and adapt to the fact that even though it’s the same, it’s different.

I’ve designated Thursday as ‘cry night’ if need be.  I don’t have classes on Friday this semester, so Thursday night is one that I can relax just a little and it’s not cram time or I don’t have to worry about having something done for the next morning.  When my body relaxes apparently the only thing it can do is have water seepage from my tear ducts, and I cry.  The stress from the week hits and it’s like…’oh wow, I made it’.  Fourteen more weeks!!

Well, though it’s been great venting a little and sharing…it’s time for me to go work for a bit and then hit the books.  My first big test is Monday (one out of four for my class grade in Geriatrics).  One thing…life is never dull anymore.

Later…ERM.

First Week – I SURVIVED!!

I walked into class on Monday morning knowing that it was going to be hard work, but was unprepared for everything that hit me in the face.  I’m a planner, I like to know what’s going on and when.  We were in class for an hour and a-half when we were informed that instead of going home (or to work in my case) at 12:00, we would be class till 3:00 pm.  We received three syllabus that were about three inches thick (each) ~ it made me feel like I would be riding a silly-bus soon. :)  It was VERY overwhelming and stressful.  I wanted to either run from the room screaming, or ball up in the fetal position and cry while rocking back and forth.

Tuesday we started practice/hands on of our skills, we went over all our information and did ‘in class peer teaching’.  Thursday, we showed up for a skills lab on how to wash our hands and wear our PPE (personal protection equipment).  We kicked the class off with a pop-quiz over our information we covered in class on Tuesday; then practiced with a peer with our PPE…then we did a peer check-off on our PPE, then went before an instructor to wash our hands in the PROPER way.  I passed!!

I survived my first week.  I’m still a little overwhelmed, I don’t know what direction to really go.  How to get organized enough to do the work for three classes that all are correlated, yet separate.  I’ll do nothing but homework/reading for the next for months.  I have three semesters and 15 weeks to go!! :)

It’s been a good experience so far…just need to find myself in all the craziness.

Gotta run…time to go read.  I’ve wasted enough time!!!

ERM

My Life this Summer…

School starts a week from today (Aug. 15, 2011).  I will officially be in the RN nursing program at Three Rivers College.  I’m a little freaked out and excited all at the same time.  I will be going part time at work, losing my insurance and half my income…so life will be just a little interesting until I figure out all the pros/cons of a nice very TIGHT budget.  But I also know that I have Someone watching over me, and He has never let me down before (last time I was fired from my job I never went without)…He’s good like that.  I’m trying to get all my books ordered and purchased, my uniforms in order and make sure they fit right, my supplies (I feel like a little kid starting kindergarten, only my mommy isn’t here to do it all for me).  It will be great!!  Our first stop is Geriatrics (the elderly), and we will work with them for the first semester.  I shall have some stories to tell. :)  Looking forward to this new chapter in my life and everything that it has in store.

My parents and I took a mini vacation to Detroit, MI, over Fourth of July weekend.  I can now add another major city to the places I have visited, and we were able to spend an awesome weekend with my mom’s family.  It was great getting to know them and spend the weekend with them.  I ate, and ate…they probably thought I was a little piggy that never got to eat at the trough at home.   But my body was gearing up for a challenge I was going to start on July 11, and I think it was in conserving mode. :)  I did eat a lot of food (or ice cream)…but oh well.  Next time I will be on my best behavior, eat daintily, and only speak when spoken to.

I did a 24-day challenge starting July 11 (the one promoted through Advocare) for a cleansing and nutritional absorption.  I lost 7 lbs and 4 1/2 inches during the time frame.  I stress ate through one of the weeks (due to some school stuff and other stuff); so given what my body was going through and the fact that I’m not like 500 lbs and can drop 50 lbs in a month…I was very pleased with my results.  I can only go forward from here.  I know I need more discipline in my eating habits (a lot of other habits too); but I’m closer to my goal than I was a month ago…I say “Onward Ho”.

That about sums up my life this summer…I did take an online class “Library Science”, very interesting cheezy class that I almost messed up in and didn’t get an A because it was so basic that I didn’t care.  I did pull an A out of the class (94), and I now know how to cite all my work and information that I take from other material in two different formats.  I feel like a genius now.  Other than that I had a very slow summer that was filled with work, work, and um more work.  Some church, and that’s it.

We finally got rain.  We had so much rain during the Spring that we flooded out.  Then we went about two months without a drop.  It was so dry you could basically lick your lips and make mud while walking around.  It finally broke last week and we have RAIN!!  It’s still a little grumbly this morning, but I’m thinking of all the creeks, ponds, and grass that is getting watered in preparation for the winter months.  The livestock will be happy and the winter crops are getting what they need.  Thank you Jesus for the rain!

Here’s to the start of the new chapter in my life next week (RN Nursing School) and what lies ahead!!  CARPE DIEM!!

ERM

Advocare

I am about to start a strenuous program at school, that will leave me with very little time and with the desire for more energy.  I was looking for a supplement program that would give me what I needed.  A friend of mine started a program called Advocare, and I thought I would try it out.  They are all natural products, it offers meal replacement drinks (so you can ‘eat’ on the go); two different energy supplements (b-12 in a bottle ~ both of which I have used and receive the needed boost in the middle of the day when I was lagging; and at night when I had to study for a test and needed to focus).  They also offer a body cleansing package, weight management, and vitamins…their list of products is very extensive and has what anyone would need.  You can pick and choose.

 The best part is that it’s cheap to start out ($79.00), they send you $50 in free product, there is no auto-ship (nothing that you do not want comes monthly), and you can get an automatic 20% discount when signing up.  You make the choice if you sell to others or enjoy the 20% discount.  The more product you purchase the bigger discount you receive. 

You can check out their website and products at:   https://www.advocare.com/110414713/

If you are interested, you can join by clicking on the become a distributor button.  I’ve been happy with the product, and it helps with working out at the gym, for busy life styles when you need just a little more ‘umph’.

No pressure, I think that decisions are personal to each individual.  If you decide to try it, good luck and I hope that it works as well for you as it has for me.

ERM

April 23, 2011 ~ We’re Nurse Bound!

I got my letter from the college about two weeks ago…I was accepted into the RN program at TRCC.  Two years, four semesters, and I will be the proud owner of a new degree and be able to help people.  I attempted to go into civic service and work for the MO Highway Patrol, but they wouldn’t allow me to wear a skirt on the job (though I would only be doing a desk job); so I had to turn them down after receiving the job.  But it opened the door for me to take this next step in my life and go back to school.  Everything happens for a reason.  I’m excited and scared both, and hope that I get some of the scholarship money that I’m applying for; but everything will work out!!

Well, I’ve been at the gym for a month.  It’s coming off slowly, unfortunately it comes off a lot slower than it goes on.  One step at a time, one weight lift at a time…I’m still learning all the machines and it will all be worth it!!  It has helped a lot with some of the symptoms of my MS, which is always a bonus.  Here’s to a new month!!  I’ll weigh and measure this Monday, hopefully there will be some good progress.  I’ll fast tomorrow!! :)

That about wraps it up for now…until more exciting things happen in my life, I’m signing off for now.

ERM

How time flies…it’s already the end of March

Well, I went back to school in January and am taking only one class (A&P II); it’s been interesting.  I love learning, but some of the kids in my class really make me want to bang my head against the table.  They ask the most inane questions and want to know if every-other idea out of the teachers mouth is going to be on the test.  WHO CARES…you’ll have to know this eventually, why not get a good basis now rather than later. 

Another GRRR! is that they always try to get by with the least amount possible.  I’m a TERRIBLE speller, I have issues and always have.  Our teacher would allow us to re-write words that we misspelled on our lab exams to gain the point back. FOUR people did not take the time to look up their words and misspelled their misspell corrections…so therefore he took this option away.  I therefore spend hours upon hours of learning my words (I would usually maybe miss one, two at the most).  So on a recent test they were all asking if they could abbreviate a majority of the words because they were ‘hard to spell’.  HELLO, are we in junior high or college.  Buck up!!

I took my pre-entrance exam back in February for the RN program, we won’t know until the second week of April if we got in or not.  It’s been a long month of March.  I’m ready to find out what’s what and where I’m going to be going next semester.  I’m praying that everything works out like it should and I’m trying to find money.  It would be nice if it grew on trees. :)

I took the first weekend of Spring break off and took a mini vaca to STL and West Plains.  I woke up Monday morning to three inches of snow in STL, it was great.  Very pretty!!  On Sunday, I went to church and one of my professors from college totally did not recognize me, I got a really good laugh out of it.  He kept blaming the backlight from the window behind me, yadda-yadda.  He felt really bad and kept apologizing, I just got a good laugh out of it.  It was a great relaxing weekend, topped off with dinner and games at my friends house in West Plains on Monday night, and time with her on Tuesday. 

I’m the proud owner of a gym membership!!  I’ve always worked out at home via video or walked at the track or around town.  It was time to bump up some weight limits, and I didn’t really want to own a whole set of weights at this time in my life (no place to store them); so I went the next best route and joined our local gym.  I think it will work out nicely, if I can figure out all the machines…the owners don’t really have a show-n-tell session or know all the in/outs themselves. :)  Here’s to skinny clothes!! <clink, clink>

I’m going to wrap it with that…it’s already midnight and 6:00 am is going to come very early.  Not to mention I have a three chapter exam tomorrow night and lots of stuff to do tomorrow on lunch (other than study).  Live still moving forward…one day at a time!!

ERM

Christmas Letter…not so jolly

For the past several years I’ve written a Christmas letter, and I enjoy receiving them.  What is a Christmas letter?  It’s when individuals write a letter that updates their friends and families about activities that have transpired over the past year and they send it in the Christmas card.  Usually they are upbeat, cheerful, full of great opportunities and activities; though sometimes they have a bit of news that is not cheerful or upbeat…but the MAJORITY of the letter is good.  I did absolutely nothing this year.  I had nothing cheerful or upbeat happen to me.  I’m still alive, but I didn’t think my friends/family would want to receive a letter of 72 font that stated I was alive…they can gather that from the fact that they received just a card from me (which I did send out cards).  So following is my un-cheerful, end-of-the-year letter of what has transpired in my life this past year:

Positive:  I continued my schooling.  I was in Anatomy and Physiology in the fall semester, I ended up with a good lab partner who challenged me to do my best and was able to help me out when I needed it.  We were at first disliked by our teacher, but by the end of the semester he seemed to like us pretty well — since we were two of only semi-bright students in the class. 

Negative:  I was diagnosed with MS, May 27.  My brother has battled this disease since 2003 (when he received his diagnosis); so I have a crystal ball of what my life holds.  Some people go in blind, not knowing what can/will happen…I have my very own walking fortune cookie.  It’s been an interesting road so far.  I take shots three times a week; they leave large red/purple bruises on my skin because the medicine is very acidic and it leaves an allergic reaction at the shot sight.  The medicine also made me lose my hair…not completely, but it is very thin and it is reacting differently to my mousse and therefore is interesting to fix now.  But at least I still have hair (POSITIVE).  My doctor thinks they caught my early enough that if I stay on my medicine that it should progress slowly; I still have symptoms sometimes even though I’m on my meds; you just deal with them and continue on with life one day at a time — it’s all a person can do.

Positive:  I’ve reconnected with a friend from High School. We have ‘coffee’ dates.  It’s good to just be able to ‘be’ with some people.  They have their ‘issues’ and I have my ‘issues’; sometimes we skirt the subjects…but most of the time we just talk nonsense and say ‘THE COFFEE IS GREAT’.

Negative:  I lost my Granny this summer.  She was a great lady and the cornerstone of our family; the solid rock that kept us going with her love and prayers.  Though I didn’t go see her much, I miss having the knowledge that she’s ‘here’.  I also lost an aunt in the spring, she was spcial need and loved everyone.  Her favorite songs were Jesus Loves Me, and ‘Don’t Miss with my Toot-Toot’.  The week before she passed away she sang Jesus Loves Me for me and my grandma.

Negative:  A friend I went to school with was diagnosed with Thyroid cancer.  I graduated with her, she’s my age, she has two small children and a husband.  She’s having trouble winning the battle.  Cancer is a disease that is becoming very common…but it’s not supposed to happen to a 33-yr old.

Negative:  Another friend I graduated with lost her mom a few months ago.  Totally unexpected.  She was here one day and gone the next.  We don’t plan for things like this (which I guess  you don’t ever plan for it, but when you’re older you may expect it more).  We’re still young, we have families that we’re starting and kids who need their grandmas.  We think we have all the time in the world…but unfortunately we find out the hard way sometimes how mortal we really are.

Positive:  I got to see the inside of an MRI machine for the first time; but it took pictures of me instead of me taking pictures of it.  A new experience!! :)

Positive:  Spent a weekend in Columbia, MO, doing a ‘habitat’ weekend for my friend M. Bielski.  I got to meet his family and spend the weekend working my hiney off trying to get his house weatherized and fixed up.  It was a great weekend.  I really enjoyed myself and got to have dinner with a college friend that I hadn’t seen in years (Dust-Man).

I’ll end there…on a positive note…but as you can see, not much happened in my life this year that someone would want to sit down and read about in a Christmas Letter that would have came with a card that I would wish them a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.  It would more than likely have the OPPOSITE affect on them and make them run the other direction and be very ‘un’-merry or ‘un’-happy for the Holiday Season.  So therefore, I sent happy cards out wishing everyone a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, and a great year to come.  And I do wish them all well, and I’m happy that I myself have grown from each experience this year and continue to learn from what is happening in the world around me.  I will be MERRY and I will be HAPPY…I know that regardless of how things looks today, that God is in control and He knows what is best even if we don’t and we question everything.

Here’s to the year to come and whatever may be in store…ERM.