Life can be crazy sometimes. Sometimes I can be crazy…like when I decided to go back to school for my BSN (Bachelor of Science in Nursing). Crazy huh!! I keep telling myself that it’s just another year and a-half, and I’m already three weeks into my first eight week session, it goes by quickly…but I still think I should have my head examined. But the decision has been made, and for now I’m sticking to it. Without my books I wouldn’t have anything to do, so I use them for company and to keep myself entertained.
I graduated in May, took a job, have taken a second job. I apparently cannot get enough of school or work. I had grand dreams when graduating, I was a NURSE. I would be making money. I would get me a new car. I would be able to pay my bills and have money left over. Somehow that didn’t all work out as I had dreamed. But I am blessed to be able to do what I love and I’m doing it on two different levels with my to different jobs. I’m learning a lot and building my knowledge base.
I had other dreams, some people probably knew that I was kidding myself because they saw the whole picture, but I still dreamed. Spent twelve years, a lot of ups and downs and frustrations, poured my heart into everything and gave it my all. It’s amazing how when you wake up from a dream you’re just left with the memory of it.
Things are good. I’m trying to get settled into my new abode, that’s taking a lot longer than expected due to some odds/ends that had to be fixed before occupation could take place. I’m living out of suitcases, wearing the same clothes over and over, and making due with a few pots and pans. But at least I have a roof over my head, I am fed, and I am blessed to have a really good price for rent (which helps in making ends meet process). I really shouldn’t complain, because as my title and Forest Gump always says, ‘you never know what you’re going to get’. Things could be so much worse.
We have been having some awesome services at church, healing and miracles have been taking place, and being able to soak up the Word under Rev. Chuck Carr is a blessing in itself. God is good to me, better than I deserve. The following passage of scripture was posted by a friend on Facebook and it reminded me that I am loved…and I am blessed. The prayers of my ancestors has kept me, and God loves me and He is faithful.
Deuteronomy 7:7-11: 7 “The Lord did not set his heart on you and choose you because you were more numerous than other nations, for you were the smallest of all nations! 8 Rather, it was simply that the Lord loves you, and he was keeping the oath he had sworn to your ancestors. That is why the Lord rescued you with such a strong hand from your slavery and from the oppressive hand of Pharaoh, king of Egypt. 9 Understand, therefore, that the Lord your God is indeed God. He is the faithful God who keeps his covenant for a thousand generations and lavishes his unfailing love on those who love him and obey his commands. 10 But he does not hesitate to punish and destroy those who reject him. 11 Therefore, you must obey all these commands, decrees, and regulations I am giving you today.
So even though we are left with just memories and we ‘never know what we’re going to get’…we can stand strong in the knowledge that God loves us and He will be faithful.