I’ve been out of school for a total of nineteen days, I still have NCLEX to pass (scheduled for Monday, July 1) and the more I listen to my online HURST review information the more I get a little bit of fear. I know my stuff, but then a part of me is always afraid because I was close on some of my tests (I made the 78 or higher on them…but it was CRAZY). There is always the fear of the unknown and the ‘what if’ of not passing boards on the first time around. So me and the HURST family are going to be spending some quality time together over the next couple of weeks (while I work and pack and do everything else that is my ‘life’ right now) and I will do my best. Which is all I can do!
My freedom so far has consisted of taking eight days and going to Washington state and visiting with a friend of mine for a few days in Stehekin, on Lake Chelan in the North Cascades. I did a small stop in Seattle, and then a day on Whidbey Island to see my uncle. It was awesome to get away into some cooler climate and no stress. My left arm actually gave up the tingle and I had very few stress induced symptoms from my MS. It was beautiful country, very peaceful, great people, a bakery with some awesome food, and relaxation that I needed desperately.
After running away for a few days I came home and worked a couple of days, finished out my time at E&S Pharmacy, and then packed and headed out to be Camp Nurse at our Teen/Senior Youth Camp. As I sat and contemplated the decision I made on Sunday to be gone all week and take care of kids at camp I reflected on my time as a camper (way back when) and the one year that I was severely sunburnt, busted my chin open, and was stung by a bee (which I am allergic to and swell up nice and prettily). And my thought was ‘Oh, no what have I gotten myself into’. As I sit here on Thursday, day four of my decision, I realize how rewarding it is. I have little sleep, but these kids think I’m Einstein. What better way to boost your self-esteem than to be Camp Nurse. Most of them are very good at coming and taking their meds, I can handle ice packs and IBU, and the one ‘oh no’ of a kid falling flat on his back while playing basketball we sent him away to the local ER with a prayer and ‘call when they give you any information’; God did what he does best and the kid was sent back to us and told to take it easy but everything is clear. I don’t mess with cases where the spine is involved, but he’s fine and with IBU and rest is getting better. I on the other hand forgot to take my own medication last night, so today I have set it out already to be remembered this evening. How can I expect the kids to remember when they are out playing and doing recreation, when I can’t remember when I just monitor them and run around doing ‘nursey’ things. I was able to help a kid that got his finger smashed with a softball relieve the pressure in his finger by using a trick my dad taught me. He was a happy camper this morning when the swelling was down and the pressure was not as bad. I’m having fun and enjoying my time, though I’m ready for some sleep. My vacation relaxation and calmness is being negated.
Many things coming my way in the next couple of weeks. I’m working at my job that I have secured at the local hospital; I’m packing my house up and will be moving (and selling) stuff; I’ll take my NCLEX on July 1, then I will start back to school in August working toward my BSN. Little steps, big steps, changes and new beginnings…I’m excited and looking forward to what is in store for me over the next couple of weeks and months. One step at a time…but the freedom I have right now is feeling pretty nice.