Yes, it’s that time again. School starts on Tuesday (1/17), and I will be starting my second semester of RN school. It seems unreal in one degree, and then on a totally different level I’m a little scared ~ what if I don’t make it, what if I mess up and don’t know my stuff? But as my motto last semester was, ‘One day at a time’. That’s the only way that I can make it, and it’s the only way to go.
I’ve been off school for about a month, there has been so much and so little that has happened. I took a mini-vaca and went back to work full time; but other than that nothing went down this past month. I was able to spend some time with friends and then realized that I don’t really have that many friends. LOL. During my first semester I thought that my study habits and full schedule of two jobs, school, and church kept me from having a full social schedule. Apparently it’s that I don’t have anyone to be social with. Everyone has either gotten married, had children, or started dating…leaving an older college student to drift. But I’m making new friends and building relationships that will keep me sane. One day at a time.
Things I was able to see/experience this month: Sky lanterns: very cool ~ I was impressed with them. Being a friend. Finding out that a good family friend lost his son, who was my age, in a car accident. There’s crazy diseases out there (i.e. Stevens-Johnson’s Syndrome) that happen to people you know.
I have come to realize over this past month that sometimes we live life to the fullest, giving our all to the One who gave us life and going at it one-hundred percent. Sometimes we live life on the outskirts, not giving it our all, wanting to be what we know we ought but not completely succeeding…but trying. And then sometimes we do what we can to hasten the end that we know we all will face not caring what happens, still going about our daily lives but barely living. Other times we hit the spectrum of all three options, going from one extreme to the other with pit stops along the way. I want to be all that I can be, and mainly what God wants me to be. Do I always succeed at this? NO. Do I give it my one-hundred percent? NO. Most of the time I fail miserably. I do hope that I get it figured out eventually, and that I can be a friend worth having and someone that is willing to give of myself and my time to those who need it. Being an example, shinning the Light of the One who created me and gave me life and salvation. It’s a daily processes, I fail most of the time and other times I think I have it and then realize that I missed an important component. But just as with nursing school…it’s one day at a time. That’s the only way it can be. I will succeed. I will make it…one day at a time.
My goals for this year…to actually start eating more healthy ~ not just one or two days at a time; to read my Bible more often and pray ~ building a relationship (gasp) with the One I KNOW loves me regardless; to get into shape and keep my body as healthy as possible as this invisible disease (MS) attacks me from the inside out. Life is worth it. Relationships are worth it. It’s just has to be taken…’one day at a time’.