Tomorrow is the first day of June…this year is already almost half over.  Time is flying faster than I can blink I think.  I’ve had a very stressful time since March apparently, I’ve gained back 8 lbs of all the weight I’ve lost (which was around 18 lbs)…I’m very frustrated about that.  It’s much easier to put it on than to take it off.  Though I did have a crazy December that helped me lose some of the weight.  But as the title of the blog is ‘new beginnings’ tomorrow I have decided that I’m going to start being the person that I know I need to be to keep the weight off and to get the weight I have gained back off.  It’s a new day, new month, new beginning.

We had a reunion last weekend for the Youth Group from 1989-1992, that were under the leadership of Calvin and Cheryl Jean.  We had a great weekend.  Saturday night we had a dinner and we just sat around telling stories from the ‘good ol’ days’, and just getting to know one another again.  Sunday morning Calvin preached on ‘Selling the Church’; he reminded us why we’re here, why we do what we do, and how important the church is.  Sometimes we forget, or we let things in our life overshadow our relationship and walk with God.  It was a great weekend.

My family, The March Gang, is in town for the summer.  They are here to raise their funds for another nine months in Ireland.  they are staying with me while they are here.  It’s an interesting change.  I’m so accustomed to being in a quiet house, and coming/going without having to worry about anyone…but it’s good.  I’m enjoying having them here, and I will miss them when they are gone again.

I love the song by Matthew West , The Motions.  When I first heard it on the radio it hit a cord in my because of some stuff that I was going through in my life at that time…and even now.  I know that there is so much more that I could be doing, but I get in a rut and flesh is so apt to follow the easy path.  I don’t want to be caught just going through the ‘ho-hum’ of life and missing the bigger picture and missing out on what God wants for my life.  Today my pastor preached about Pentecost and having the ‘power’ and anointing, and the fact that we don’t have to be perfect we just have to be willing to be used and to step out and ‘do’ something.  I’m waiting on the audible voice of God, or for Him to just come down and sit beside me and say “Hey, this is what is”, and to show me where and what he wants.  Sometimes I feel like I’ve totally missed the boat, and that I’m watching it chug out of the harbor and everyone else caught it and knew exactly what they were going to do.  I rethink all the decisions that I’ve made in my life over the past ten years and the “What Ifs’ are HUGE…but I know that it starts over NOW.  It’s a new beginning…a new day…and it depends on how I take THIS day and this chance not on the past.

To new beginnings…to new months…to the rest of 2009.