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June…to new beginnings

Tomorrow is the first day of June…this year is already almost half over.  Time is flying faster than I can blink I think.  I’ve had a very stressful time since March apparently, I’ve gained back 8 lbs of all the weight I’ve lost (which was around 18 lbs)…I’m very frustrated about that.  It’s much easier to put it on than to take it off.  Though I did have a crazy December that helped me lose some of the weight.  But as the title of the blog is ‘new beginnings’ tomorrow I have decided that I’m going to start being the person that I know I need to be to keep the weight off and to get the weight I have gained back off.  It’s a new day, new month, new beginning.

We had a reunion last weekend for the Youth Group from 1989-1992, that were under the leadership of Calvin and Cheryl Jean.  We had a great weekend.  Saturday night we had a dinner and we just sat around telling stories from the ‘good ol’ days’, and just getting to know one another again.  Sunday morning Calvin preached on ‘Selling the Church’; he reminded us why we’re here, why we do what we do, and how important the church is.  Sometimes we forget, or we let things in our life overshadow our relationship and walk with God.  It was a great weekend.

My family, The March Gang, is in town for the summer.  They are here to raise their funds for another nine months in Ireland.  they are staying with me while they are here.  It’s an interesting change.  I’m so accustomed to being in a quiet house, and coming/going without having to worry about anyone…but it’s good.  I’m enjoying having them here, and I will miss them when they are gone again.

I love the song by Matthew West , The Motions.  When I first heard it on the radio it hit a cord in my because of some stuff that I was going through in my life at that time…and even now.  I know that there is so much more that I could be doing, but I get in a rut and flesh is so apt to follow the easy path.  I don’t want to be caught just going through the ‘ho-hum’ of life and missing the bigger picture and missing out on what God wants for my life.  Today my pastor preached about Pentecost and having the ‘power’ and anointing, and the fact that we don’t have to be perfect we just have to be willing to be used and to step out and ‘do’ something.  I’m waiting on the audible voice of God, or for Him to just come down and sit beside me and say “Hey, this is what is”, and to show me where and what he wants.  Sometimes I feel like I’ve totally missed the boat, and that I’m watching it chug out of the harbor and everyone else caught it and knew exactly what they were going to do.  I rethink all the decisions that I’ve made in my life over the past ten years and the “What Ifs’ are HUGE…but I know that it starts over NOW.  It’s a new beginning…a new day…and it depends on how I take THIS day and this chance not on the past.

To new beginnings…to new months…to the rest of 2009.


Tonight I sat in Chuck’s class at church titled “Blessings and Abominations”.  He talked about how God took the children of Israel through the wilderness to teach the trust and discipline, and to also prepare them for the blessing that He was going to give them.  Chuck also talked about patience and how sometimes we fail to receive God’s blessings because we don’t have the patience to wait on Him to bring it.  We get frustrated and fail to wait for it…because we live in a NOW mentality world.  Also, that once we do obtain the promise we are to remember WHO made it possible and that it is not by our own righteousness that we have it…God’s love and mercy are want bring us into blessings.

I am so blessed, and I fail to remember that sometimes because I look at the circumstances that I find myself in at that moment instead of what has happened in the past and what I’m looking forward to in the future.  God has done so much for me.  He made it possible for me to build a house, and when I lost the job I had that made the payments affordable He has also supplied a means for me to keep the house…and I have not went hungry; He has given me a family that is AWESOME!!  They are there for me regardless, and sometimes I can be a pain.  He has placed me in a church under leadership that has vision.  I’m not always what I need to be and I sometimes lose sight of the goal; but He is faithful, even when my faith falters.  He loves me when I feel unlovable.  He catches me when I fall, or at least is standing there beside me coaxing me to get up.  He is my supplier of all things that I need; and gives me things even before I know that I need them.  He’s awesome, and sometimes in the fog of life I forget the simple things while looking for the big.

I am thankful for all my blessings…and I know they come from Him.

I had a picture published…

I use a flickr site to store a lot of my pics online…I have a tone more that I need to put up…anyway, Schmap!! emailed me the other day and they wanted to use one of my photos from Ireland in their Belfast Historical Background section.  Of course I said YES, and you can go check it out here:  SCHMAP!!

Other than that…not much happening.  I’m really blah right now, we have had nothing but rain and cloudy skies for a week, and we’re only having that for another week.  I’ve gained about five pounds due to eating everything in site…I need an exercise driver to crack a whip over me and keep my butt motivated, or soon I’m going to start looking like the Goodyear Blimp.

Riley and Tara and the kids come home in SIXTEEN DAYS, I’m very excited about that.  Though my house needs a lot of stuff done to it to make it comfortable for them…I need some dressers and some beds moved in.  I need to make a ‘to-do’ list so it will be ready by the 20th.  WOOT!!!

Had a good weekend so far.  Spent Friday night at my cousin’s house, then Saturday I went to PB and hung out with some of my friends that I haven’t seen in awhile.  Now it’s off to church today, and we’re having a fat cow party…but I’m going to help make the cake instead…which means I really must get going. :)